I exist within the liminal space between reality and unreality; always here and not here. I see the world through the lens of DPDR (derealisation / depersonalisation disorder), knowing that I am real, that the world around me is real, that you are real, but not feeling that way. My reflection is a stranger, my voice is unknown, and the world is a film set.
I fiction my lived experience because it feels like a fiction. My physical body is the camera, passively observing what I see. I view myself as a character in a film; constantly living in birds eye view, or third person. My film work references this, through the self insertion as an unnamed character. I create Autofiction, documenting real events, but understanding them from the visceral, derealised or depersonalised perspective.
Mia Douglas (meejaah) is a London-based experimental filmmaker and artist.
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